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22 random things that make me tired as a disabled woman

I am tired of often needing to value other people’s needs more than my own.

I am tired of being anxious about small events because of the fear of being marginalized and silenced.

I am tired of people over and over again assuming my opinions on sexism and ableism are just an emotional reaction instead of opinions based on diverse knowledge and deep experience of both.

I am tired of feeling like a bad feminist when I can’t show matters of privileged women support who don’t acknowledge or understand my reality.

I am tired of people finding it okay when Hollywood presents disabled people better of dead.

I am tired of everyone but myself having more authority to decide on my abilities and strengths.

I tired of my body being objectified as desexual, weak and emotionless.

I am tired of people I love excusing ableist people.

I am tired of needing to pick out a presidential candidate or other people for powerful positions, who I don’t identify with, and who will therefore have big problems understanding my reality.

I am tired of ableism being normalized on a higher level in my country then sexism and racism (not that that isn’t normalized enough).

I am tired of people not understanding multiple oppression and that I can not pick out identities like clothes to wear everyday. I am always both a woman and disabled. Not either or.

I am tired of not being able to trust that my independence is longterm because in Iceland personal assistance is still a trial project. My freedom is on trial.

I am tired of being afraid of sharing what I find hard because then I automatically become victimized.

I am tired of sometimes not being able to sleep from worries about the influence of marginalization on my future.

I am tired of people constantly asking ‘how is it going?’ in stead of ‘how are you feeling?’.

I am tired of not being allowed to be angry because it makes others uncomfortable.

I am tired of not being allowed to show difficult emotions without being stigmatized as negative and unhappy when I am most definitely not.

I am tired of not having space to talk about physical pain without my life being stigmatized as not worth living.

I am tired of many people not caring about everything mentioned above. 

I am tired of not being allowed to be tired.

I am tired of being tired of being tired.

I am so tired.

2 thoughts on “22 random things that make me tired as a disabled woman

  1. Thank you for saying exactly our daily existence in today’s world.
    Meaningful, absolutely true nowadays.
    Exactly how I, and many others in similar circumstances, deal with daily.
    Resilience wins the day – may many people see and respect this quality in you, and the rest of us.
    Hugs aplenty in empathy.
    Penny
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